Ever had one of those days where you wished you never had gotten up? Well today was one for me. I lost my wallet and can’t find it anywhere. It is probably under the seat at the dollar theater we went to last night. The next showing will not be done until 11:40pm and then we can go look. It has my credit card, drivers license, school ID, social security card, insurance card, and various other cards.

Today is also the first of the month so the bills are due. December 15th is when we pay the car note but they never sent a bill so I forgot about iton the day I paid bills and the extra money went to pay down credit card bills. Then 2 days later I realized that I had not paid the car note so I did a DDA (direct deposit advance) which lets us to a temp loan through Wells Fargo (our bank) that gets taken out of the next check. Well since I had to do that we did not have enough to pay the bills. The electric bill was $200 and I am convinced that one of or walls only exists in out imagination and all the heat or AC is going right outside. I have made a vow never to turn on the heat or AC again no matter if I freze to death! And adding to it was Dean’s credit card which was maxed out plus some from christmas presents and eating out in CS which had to be paid immedaitly. So I did a max DDA for $500 (half of Dean’s next pay check) to pay all the bills and rent.

Tomorrow I can finally get together with the guy at the Denton Branch of Texas center of Adult Literacy and learning that Harriet hooked me up with for a job. Screw school we need to get out of debt. It will be years before I finish anyway so what is putting it off for a few more years?

All of this shit is my fault. Dean would have been finacially better off with out me. Yes yes I know that most college students and recent grads are in debt for a while but this is ridiciouls! We have about $40,000 in debt and it makes me want to shoot myself!

What a way to start the new year. Hope yours is going better than mine.

-Kaston